I have opened up the laptop several times today trying to muster up something to post. I just can't seem to think of something worth writing about.
I am having "one of those days". It's the kind of day when you think that nothing seems to be going right and you have a glimpse of your life in a very deep and honest way (warts and all) and you don't like what you see. All you see before you is the bad stuff, the stuff you tend to hide, the stuff you try to ignore.
It's one of those days when you think no one is on your side. It's when you feel inadequate, unwanted and useless all the way around.
In your hearts of hearts you know this too shall pass. In your logical mind, you know that it could be worse and you should be counting your blessings instead.
However, for just a little while you want to feel sad about it all, wallow in your doubt, insecurities and misgivings. Just for a while you want to pout about the ugly stuff in your life and wish for something more. You'd blame someone, if only someone else was to blame.
So, for now, instead of painting a pretty picture of what I have constructed as my life, I am gonna just be up front and let you know it's just one of those days. It will pass. It always does.
Sunday, July 16, 2006
One of those days
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3 comments:
I hate those days, especially when they turn into weeks and God forbid, months. The longer it goes, the harder it is to get back to that pretty picture.
Thanks for posting another beautiful lilly photo, though! You may not be feeling sun-shiny, but your cheery flower does. It symbolizes hope and faith I gather.
I had one last week. Hate those non creative days. Especially when it is coupled with the negative feelings. Dare I say it ... this, too shall pass. I wish for you peace of heart.
Maybe you've got jetlag from your trip to Napville Saturday!
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