Blinded by the light

I have been a little blue and grumpy lately. (I use “little” in an attempt to not make it sound as bad as it actually is. Denial is my best friend.) I think sometimes we just get to looking at ourselves rather harshly. It’s kinda like lighting: you think your make-up looks good until you get out in the daylight and realize you resemble a clown.

Bad analogy, but you get the point. I just think maybe I am looking at my life in a new light and it’s not as pretty as I wanted it to be. I have always thought of myself as a positive person and have sorta promoted myself in that way. Lately it seems that I have been anything but positive and I don’t like myself in that light.

I don’t like being someone that holds grudges, keeps a mental list of the ways they’ve been wronged or is always looking out for barbs and pitfalls. So, after a big huge pity party yesterday, I am taking off my party hat and trying to look at myself in a more flattering light. I am not gonna close the blinds and hide all of the lamps, but I may squint a little and dim the lights a bit. I gotta get out of this funk. Rolling around in the floor meowing didn’t help. Multiple fountain Diet Colas over the weekend didn’t shake these blues. It’s time for drastic measures.

So, after reflecting on yesterday’s post about a new photographic chapter in my life, I am going to try taking a few new snapshots of who I am. (Double analogy, sorry!) I know that no one ever likes a photo of herself, but at least maybe I can get a more honest impression of where I am. Too bad I can’t take a photo of where I want to be.

Here’s to looking at myself in a positive light, holding onto the good snapshots and tossing the ones with my eyes closed.

I am including a photo of my two brothers and me taken when we purchased my beloved 110 camera at K-Mart. Please notice the great composition and lighting. Quality photography, eh? Please also note that my grandmother (Her Highness A) made the coat I am wearing and that yes, that is Marsha Brady's hair that I stole.