Catching up

Earlier today I wrote about the fact that due to some external pressures, I had become disconnected from what means the most to me in my life: my relationships. I am blessed with so many true friendships. . . the kind that have spanned many, many years. I am also grateful for my new bonds as well, both via the Internet and in "real life".

Tonight I had some extra time, so I decided to use it well. No, I didn't start another load of laundry, sweep the floors or catch up on my knitting. Instead I picked up the phone and called a college friend. I guess I shouldn't consider her a "college friend" any more, as our connection has lasted long beyond those four years. We have kept up with each other regularly, but haven't had a chance to gab on the phone in a while. She recently left her job to be a stay-at-home mom. I was so excited to hear how well it suited her. I was refreshed to know that she was rejuvenated by the time with her son, full of life, happy and content.

I hadn't taken time in a while to place such a call. I was so glad I did.

Later in the evening, another college friend, one of my closest friends in fact, called me. We had been interupted over the weekend in an attempt to talk, so we gave it another try. She'll be in Kentucky in May and I am excited and giddy with anticipation. We've been a source of support and strength for each other through many instances. In fact, she offered to fly from Chicago to be with me at my grandmother's funeral. That perhaps, was the greatest extension of kindness I have ever seen. What a woman. What a friendship.

It was just what the doctor ordered. It did my soul good.

Hey, guys, I also want to clarify, please don't pity my people-pleasing illness. It's a curse at times, those times when you get your feelings hurt, or you fail, or you can't make that connection or try as you might, darnit, you can't get someone to like you. However, often it is a blessing, because you are open to the love that others pour out to you. You have laid a strong foundation for friendships that have lasted you a lifetime. You can hear the cheer in their voice as they greet you. It's a blessing and well worth the other disappointments you may experience.
I have given up on being liked by each and every person, but darnit, those that I love will continue to know it. . . it's my mad mission.